Small Update!!

Phew it's been a long year so far and it's only the beginning!

If you noticed me gone for a few weeks there has been a big excuse for that. I been keeping this very quiet because well, who really want's to bring their personal problems to their blog? But I felt like I needed to talk a little bit about this because I been missing a little and I had felt bad.

This year started out rough for me, we found out my grandpa is stage 4 cancer and only had less then 2 months to live. It was a shock really, because he took such a great care of himself that it literally shook our world. He lives in Ukraine and because of their kind of 'laws' or rules, the only people that were told about it was his family and not him. I didn't agree with this, but it was my grandmother choice not to tell him in hopes he did not give up hope.

He didn't. He pulled through and went through 3 months instead of less then 2 and it gave time for my family to fly over there - set up skype and allow my grandpapa one last connection with his grandchildren and his only great-grand-child. It was beautiful and sad at the same time. It really is hard for me to write this even as I sit here. It was the most difficult time of my life. Being forward and honest I have never lost someone so close to me and grandpa and I were really close. The worse part of this was the fact that I last saw him in person about 10 years ago :(

Before the death, we had another unfortunate loss on my husband side of the family. At the same time that we learned about grandfather's cancer, my husband grandma ended up in the hospital. She passed away a month before him and we went to memorial funeral services just a week before i received the phone call. Grandma was a happy 90, grandpa was only 75.

If anyone knows what's it's like dealing with a relative with cancer, it wasn't easy. There is just so much pain and struggle especially for the person suffering from it that it made the last few weeks emotionally devastating for all us until the very last breath. It has cut down on my reading and online time, but I am glad to say I am back in full swing and now catching up on a lot of stuff. In the next few days I have a lot of reviews coming!

On top of it all I had to take a second shift time that worked late over time. I lasted about a week before I caused bad damage to my feet and was unable to go back to after the funeral. When your husband works first and you are working second and never see each other, it can get a little rough. I learned it the hard way, but I am glad things are back to somewhat normal now.

Thought still hard. I felt I had to share this with you. My family has been a rock and Ali from My Guilty Obsession has been a wonderful and great support throughout the entire thing. I don't know why I felt the need to bring this up on my blog, but I think it help me move on by talking about it a little.